24 hours ago I was sweaty with dread and doubt. Okay, the sweaty was more a circumstance of weather and my insistence in not turning on the A/C. The dread and doubt were real though. What if no one supports this work? What if my threshold for doing this work has been maxed? How foolish will I look? Will I ever be able to lift my head high again?
Four hours later, back from the evening's activities I check email and am overwhelmed. A few friends decided to be contributors. Generous contributors. More generous than I would ask. And I am grateful. So very grateful. We passed the halfway mark easily and reached the three-quarters mark. How would we reach the threshold of my goal?
In less than 24 hours, you, my beloved supporters of Grace Notes, have demonstrated true generosity. And even went a little beyond the threshold I set. And a different little voice inside me says, Why did you doubt?
Perhaps you were following this little Zen heart sutra: Gate Gate, Para Gate, Para Sam Gate, Bohdi Svaha. (Translation: Go beyond, Go beyond beyond, Go beyond beyond towards enlightenment)
Why is it I (or do you hear a little of yourself in this too) lower the expectations of myself, friends, family, co-workers, everyone, etc. to stave off disappointment? Shouldn't we be holding each other up, reminding each other of our best selves?
So to that end of reminding you and me of our best selves, I am extending the Razoo goal back out to the original budget amount of $6,360 (yep, I lowered it to my bare, bare minimum to ease the disappointment -- the difference seems so insignificant now!) and invite you to be generous with the gifts you have to offer, beit writing prayers of support, in-kind offerings or financial gifts. The threshold is less than $75 away...
What will my gratitude feel like when your generosity have matched that threshold and gone beyond? Stay tuned.